When you fall in love, you get immersed in it; It becomes an addiction in a way, kind of like a never-ending thirst. When you fall in love, you for get to think, you forget all common sense (if you even had any at all to begin with) and you just jump right in... Headfirst.
This happens because I think that at some point, you give up all of your questions- All of the 'what if's and also all of the maybe's. Then, you will find that the two of you are in love with each other and you feel as if you are dreaming. Of course, it is not perfect, but no love is...Right? It is learning something new about another person every single day, it is exchanging smiles and it is also exchanging inside jokes when the two of you are in a crowded room some place.
Falling in love with somebody and being in love with somebody is the part that it seems that every human beings wants to be able to experience. I guess that it must be the part that makes a love story so much more like a fairytale sometimes.
Then suddenly, the little laugh that you used to love about them... Becomes annoying. Suddenly, the way that they look at you just makes you feel so small... Instead of big, like before. Suddenly, they are picking fights out of nowhere and for no logical reason whatsoever. Suddenly, you would rather be all alone and by yourself... Then to be around them. One day, they are your sun, your galaxy and your entire universe. Then the next day, you are just not even too sure as to what they are to you anymore.
Maybe neither one of you even did anything wrong at all. Maybe it just kind of happened; Slowly... So slowly, that you did not even notice all of the red flags or all of the warning signs. One day, you was a couple, thinking and talking about a future together forever. Then the next day, you are somewhat like strangers. You are not even too sure how it happened; Was it something that I did or was it something that they said? How do you make it be like how it used to be? How do you get back to the magic parts? How do you get back to the fairytale in reality? It is terrifying; How somebody that you was so certain about just a few months ago, suddenly becomes a question mark, instead of a period?
Real life can sometimes be very cruel. It does not make any sense at all and sometimes, love just does not make any sense, either.
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